Big Faith

The show is called Big Love but polygyny really takes Big Faith

Returning the favor

CW has her nursing boards coming up, so we took the kids out for pizza on Friday and I kept her kids overnight so she could study.  I am so proud of her, masha’Allah.  It’s been a tough road but she’s almost finished!


May 3, 2007 Posted by | blessings, Coping with polygyny, Islam, marriage, Muslim women, polygamy, polygyny | 5 Comments

Community duties

community.jpgJTL was talking in the comments about community responsibilities toward families in polygyny. This is a really important topic, because community support or lack thereof can have a significant effect on a polygynous marriage.

While I’m sure there are ideal communities somewhere that support the families within them regardless of their marriage style, most communities fall into one of two general categories when it comes to polygyny.

Consider the polygyny-obsessed community. This is a masjid or a region where the idea of polygyny is being actively preached and practiced, and the leaders and others make it their business to encourage brothers to take additional wives. This is a an unwise proposition because brothers who might not otherwise even think about polygyny can be guilt-ed into “bringing back this sunnah”, and they might not be financially, emotionally or spiritually ready for such an endeavor.

In addition, once the brothers marry there is usually no counseling or instruction to assist them with the heavy responsibilities they’ve taken on, and often not even any good, humble, open role models for them to emulate. There is also often no sheikh or “big brother” to hold them accountable for doing polygyny right (avoiding welfare fraud, being fair with time and resources, dealing with stepchildren and half sibilings, etc.). The communities where polygyny is encouraged are most often made up of reverts, and it has to be remembered that they did not grow up with polygyny as part of their culture, so they have no reference point for how to be a husband in polygyny, nor do they usually have the support and help of their families.

Pushing polygyny is also dangerous because it can breed an atmosphere of judgement and even bullying for the sisters. Many sisters are made to feel inadequate or downright sinful if they object to or have a hard time adjusting to polygyny. There is an attitude that polygyny is the be-all and end-all of deen measurement and that its acceptance is incumbent upon each woman, regardless of her circumstances or her reasons for not liking it. If her husband stops supporting her, cheats her out of her time, abuses her verbally, forces her to live on state subsidies, even moves away completely, she is encouraged to accept it as qadr. This reflects a poor understanding of both polygyny and qadr. Would these same people encourage a man to “be patient” with a wife who decided not to ever cook again or who refused to care for her children? Not many would. But those things, too, are qadrullah. It is no more halal to abuse or cease supporting a wife than it is to stop cooking or to neglect one’s children. (In fact, according to Maliki fiqh, women are not even required to DO housework and cooking, and if they choose to these are considered nafl acts!) This attitude that women are not good Muslimahs unless they accept polygyny unconditionally, without even the limits Allah put on it, is insidious and ignorant.

Of course I’m not saying that women should bail out or should be encouraged to leave their husbands at the very mention of polygyny. But neither should they be encouraged to stay and be endlessly patient in a destructive marriage. And putting up with abuse should definately not be used as a measuring stick for their iman.

Then there is the other extreme, which is a community that rejects the idea of polygyny altogether and denies any kind of support or encouragement whatsoever to families who choose polygyny. Some community leaders simply advise against it carte blanche, without considering each case on its own merits, and then leave families to deal with all their problems alone because, after all, they were told not to enter polygyny and they chose to do it anyway, so they will just have to muddle through as best they can.

In our case, the Islamic school’s tuition was set up according to family, with discounts being given for each additional student. One year it was even a flat fee per family. But the school insisted on counting polygynous families as two separate families. Of course schools are not required to count all of a man’s wives and children as one family, but this seems like one small way a community could support the polygynous families in its midst rather than make things more difficult for them.

In both polygyny-obsessed and polygyphobic communities, the least people could do would be to refrain from gossiping about a polygynous family. This, of course, often proves most difficult and even some normally dignified Muslims fall prey to discussing and dissing polygynous families. If community members cannot even pass this tiny test from Allah, how do they justify expecting the polygynous family members to pass such a great test with no help or support?

Polygyny seems to me to be a symptom of a larger problem that Muslims have with supporting each other and with implementing and maintaining organizations and services to help our ummah become strong. If we don’t get it together and start taking our community duties seriously we will see more and more division, more and more failed marriages of every type, and more and more assimilation as people have to turn away from the Muslim community to get resources and assistance they need.

April 27, 2007 Posted by | considering polygyny, Coping with polygyny, Islam, marriage, muslim men, Muslim women, polygamy, polygyny, religion | 11 Comments

Heart to heart

kindness.jpgWhen there are bad feelings between believers, the remedy Sh. Hamza Yusuf shares in his course on Purification of the Heart is to do kind things for the other person or to give him or her a gift. This can cause their heart to incline toward you, which in turn helps your heart to incline toward them. We should do this for the sake of Allah, as an act of ibadah, and insha’Allah it will ease our relations as well as.

Here are some kind acts that a sister can do for her co-wife that can improve, solidify or beautify the relationship between the wives:

Offer to take care of her children while she does her grocery shopping or other errands.

Send a baked treat or some of your meal along with your husband when he goes to her house.

Attend her children’s recitals, plays, soccer games or other activities.

Speak well of her to others.

Send her a little card or note in the mail or email once in awhile.

Have your children make little artworks and, if they’re old enough, sign them as gifts for her on ‘Eid or just anytime.

Ask for her advice or suggestions in an area where she is particularly skilled, such as cooking or sewing or teaching or filling out tax papers.

Take a road trip or a day trip together, either with just you two, with you two and the kids, or ask your hubby if he’d consider taking you all somewhere special for a weekend.

Invite her kids with you when you’re taking your own children somewhere fun.

Pick one day a month to be “kid’s night” and watch her other kids while she spends time with one child alone. She can do the same for you once a month, so that all of your kids get at least semi-regular time to have fun alone with mom. Sometimes we also take out one of the other’s children, especially the older girls.

My cw loves baklava. If I go somewhere where they have it I always try to bring her back some.

Stand up for her if you hear others speaking about her. Sometimes people will “confide” (read: gossip) things about your cw to you. Don’t ever, ever tolerate this. She won’t know you did this but suphan Allah, don’t let others badmouth her – or your husband for that matter.

If you have small children you can take turns going on dates with the hubby. You watch her kids while they go out, she watches yours while you and he go out. Sometimes our husband takes my cw and me out to eat or to a movie together. If this doesn’t make you uncomfortable, try it! It’s great fun, allows for lighthearted communication time and it is hilarious to watch all the people peeking at you, wondering if you’re both married to him.

When my cw orders things from online she sometimes orders a scarf or a second of whatever she’s ordering for me.

If your cw’s kids are school-age and they are selling things as fundraisers for school, always try to order from them if you can.

It’s really cool when both cw’s children grow up together as siblings. We have “camp outs” sometimes where all the small kids get to crash at one of our houses on the living room floor and sleep in sleeping bags. They love this and sometimes drive us crazy begging for camp outs!

Be as concerned about your husband’s fairness to her as you are about your husband’s fairness to you.

If a special night like her anniversary falls on your night, offer to switch with her (be sure to check with your hubby first).

Always, always, always make du’a for her, your husband, both your marriages and all your kids.

Sometimes neither these tactics nor anything else will seem to soften a cw’s heart. If they don’t, that’s OK. Just keep doing them – at least the ones you can. Sometimes all you can do is be concerned with fairness to her and make du’a. If that’s all you can do, do it. If you can do more without upsetting her or your husband, do more. Just be kind to her as an act of ibadah and Allah will bless you in ways you can’t even fathom. It may not come as a direct response to your kindness – you may never break through her wall of resistance. But Allah never suffers the reward of the righteous to be lost.

“…never will I suffer to be lost the work of any of you, be he male or female: Ye are members, one of another: Those who have left their homes, or been driven out therefrom, or suffered harm in My Cause, or fought or been slain,- verily, I will blot out from them their iniquities, and admit them into Gardens with rivers flowing beneath;- A reward from the presence of Allah, and from His presence is the best of rewards.” (Al Imran, 195)

April 25, 2007 Posted by | Coping with polygyny, faith, Islam, marriage, Muslim women, polygamy, polygyny, religion | 6 Comments

A rant

stop-the-abuse.jpg (Pardon the dust – still in the process of editing this)

Some sisters I know were discussing their various situations, with some urging sisters to be patient and others urging sisters to leave their husbands. A big row ensued about whether women should stay in polygynous/abusive situations or not. Then I got a comment here on ye olde blogge that indicated women should not even try to adjust to “something as horrible as polygyny”. So apparently there are two different issues that need to be teased apart:

To be in a polygynous marriage is not, in-and-of-itself, horrible. Many women all over the world are in polygynous marriages, and they are happy to different degrees depending upon such things as their husband’s temperament, their co-wife’s(ves’) attitudes, their own nature, their health, the climate, their children’s ages, whether their mom lives close by, whether they have a hang-nail today or not….all kinds of variables go into whether or not a person is happy. Polygyny is not a make-or-break factor.

The behavior of the husband, however, is often a make-or-break factor. One woman can be in a horrible monogamous marriage and another in a stable, happy polygynous one. Yet another woman may be in a happy monogamous marriage but her sister in a disastrous polygynous one. If a man treats his wife badly – whether the bad treatment manifests in obsessive control, beating, neglect, lack of maintenance or whtaever – then the issue(s) needs to be addressed as bad treatment.  Whether the marriage is monogomaous or polygynous is really inconsequential. If the situation involves bad treatment, it needs to be addressed as such. It bothers me when people see a polygnyous husband who treats one or more of his wives badly and they automatically blame it on the polygyny, when obviously the problem is the brother.

Now – a further distinction: There is a difference between “an abuser” – a person who habitually abuses those in his care – and “a husband who committed an abusive act”. In the first situation, not only should the wife leave the husband, but it could be considered fard on her to leave him, depending on the type and severity of the abuse, whether her children are being abused as well, etc. In the second case, a woman has to make a choice. She can cite the abusive act and request a divorce, no blame on her if she does that, or she can choose to forgive her husband and remain by his side even though he made a serious mistake, no blame on her if she does that either.

I believe that women in general should be much more open to polygyny, but I do not believe that women should be more open to being betrayed – or abused in any manner.

It is an extremely serious thing to advise a woman to request a divorce or to advise her to remain “patient” if she is being abused. And the thing is, unless a person is very intimately involved in a situation, knows both parties, and has seen them interact, there is no way to know who is suffering what. Maybe the wife who is in tears because her husband just took away her checkbook is a shopping addict who indulges her own desires while there are groceries that need to be bought! Or maybe the husband who is at his wits end because his wife is a nagger who won’t leave him alone is unemployed and neglecting her while he spends time out with his friends and neglecting the children while he watches TV! We can never really know what a situation entails, especially over the Internet. So insisting that someone should divorce or should stay married is not a wise thing to do.

As an advisor, all one can do is stress the need for the person to pray istikhara and give helpful tips on being patient, if that’s what the person is trying to do, or on relying on Allah for a decision made if they have decided to divorce, and always, always, on trying to improve one’s relationship with Allah, no matter what their marital choice is.

Whether to stay and be patient through a difficult trial or to pluck up one’s courage to leave a dangerous or iman-draining situation is, in the final analysis, a choice that can only be made by the persons involved. May Allah guide us all to whatever is best for us in the dunya and the akhira, and help us to always remind each other of Him. Ameen.

April 18, 2007 Posted by | considering polygyny, Coping with polygyny, faith, Islam, marriage, muslim men, Muslim women, polygamy, polygyny, religion | 8 Comments

Second wives have emotions, too!

While I’m not a second wife, I have been in contact with many of them and I can assure you that second wives encounter their own share of adjustment issues, and indeed are sometimes completely blindsided by them.

Many people assume that since most second wives entered their marriages knowing it would be a polygynous situation, they are not entitled to their share of adjustment issues. This is not only unfair, it’s downright stupid.

Every marriage, polygynous or monogamous, involves an adjustment period and goes through different stages – some harmonious, some discordant. So second marriages should be allowed that room to struggle just like first marriages. The thing is, with second marriages this is happening in the “shadow” of the husband’s experiences with his first wife. So if his first wife was more acquiescent or more domestic or more strong-willed (whatever the case), the second wife will feel she’s being compared to that. And some unwise husbands even harp on such things to their wives (“The other one doesn’t talk back,” “The other one dresses up more,” “The other one [fill-in-the-blank]”). So there may be a sense for a second wife that she has to “live up to” or “excel” her co-wife.

A second wife is also often going through the ups and downs of early marriage at a time when her co-wife is far past all that. Early marriage involves power struggles, boundary setting, cooperation style finding, etc. These things don’t usually happen in complete bliss. They are struggles. They involve conflict and emotion. Can you imagine going through all that feeling that your co-wife has already ironed it all out and is more stable in her relationship with your husband? And what if your style is completely different from that of your co-wife? Some husbands deal better with such a situation than others. Some husbands expect to behave with their second wife exactly the same way they deal with their first, and this does not always work. So sometimes second wives have a double-hard time of it because they have to find their own way and disabuse their husbands of the idea that they are a clone at the same time!

In my opinion one of the worst things second wives have to deal with is the wagging tongues of others. People who are normally kind and generous and forgiving can grow forked tongues and horns when the subject is a second wife. Not only is she accused of being a home-wrecker, but any problems she has are considered deserved, so she suffers twice. This can make for a very lonely road.

So being a second wife can be as much of a struggle as being a first wife. Of course the methods of coming out healthy and victorious are the same: du’a, sabr, and leaning on Allah. If a polygynous family can agree to meet all their challenges with humility and trust in Allah it can be the most rewarding kind of family, because it offers so much room for spiritual growth, maturity, and the gaining of wisdom.

April 17, 2007 Posted by | Coping with polygyny, faith, Islam, marriage, Muslim women, polygamy, polygyny, religion | 24 Comments

Am I normal? (some common feelings of first wives)

emotion-grap.png(Disclaimer: I am speaking in this post primarily about women who entered polygyny knowingly.)

No matter what you feel as a co-wife at any given moment, almost everyone wonders, “Is this normal? Am I crazy to feel this way? Am I a bad Muslim if I feel this way?” Some people will make you feel as if weak iman is what causes various emotions. But be assured that emotions are just that – feelings – and no emotion can make you a bad Muslim. In fact, if we didn’t have those emotions, we’d already be perfect and not human, and there would be no point to this dunya! Also be assured that most co-wives’ emotions run the entire gammut at one time or another!

Most importantly, it is completely normal for your emotions to fluctuate and bounce all over the spectrum from one second to the next (this is true about second wives as well, of course. I’ll talk about second wives’ emotions in another post). The adjustment to being a co-wife is somewhat like loss, because you’re changing your previous identity and role. So you may feel horrified, grieved, betrayed, sad, excited, angry, hopeful, afraid, indignant, relieved, impatient, all in one day! Often your “state of acceptance” is very black and white: either your’re completely fine with it (one minute or one day), or you’re completely falling apart (the next minute or the next day!). Another pendulum swing is from wanting to rise to the occassion, greet your co-wife with graciousness and take polygyny head-on in a positive manner, to wanting to crawl into bed and cover your head, never greet your co-wife at all, and jump off a cliff rather than face life in polygyny.

Most first wives experience a lot of self doubt. “Why am I not enough for him?” A close relative of this emotion is its polar opposite, “What’s wrong with him that he can’t be satisied with one good woman??” Seek refuge with Allah from shaitan whenever you feel these emotions, because, while normal, if you dwell on it it can cause a lot of misery. Remember, “IF” is a door for shaitan.

The rockiest time as far as pure adjustment goes usually lasts about a month or so, and that is a healthy amount of time. One sister, Zainab, reported with a chuckle, “I cried for three weeks straight. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, I did nothing but lay on the bed and cry. Then, after three weeks, my husband said, ‘OK, girl, that’s enough crying. Come on,’ and I stood up, dried my eyes, and didn’t return to that state. Things just seemed manageable.”

Incidentally, these emotions are normal even for women who were completely OK with the polygyny concept, and who may have even encouraged their husbands to marry another wife. When the reality comes closer, fear and doubt sometimes set in, and the emotions do tend to runneth over! But this is most usually a temporary state. After the knot is tied, the drama is past, and things have a chance to settle down into a routine, the adjustment is easier. One sister said, “All kinds of people told me I was crazy and that after the deed was done I’d regret it. They said, ‘Thinking about polygyny is one thing – the reality is another completley.'” I kept saying, “If they would just hurry up and get married, I’ll be fine.  And once they did, I was.” So don’t let other people make you doubt yourself by pushing their own emotions onto you.

As time goes on, the adjustment to polygyny progresses and your issues and emotions change. You may have issues with friends who either stubbornly invite one wife and not the other to parties, or who treat you as connected at the hip, always assuming that one wife will tell the other about the party and that they’ll both feel equally invited that way, which is not the case. You’ll turn your attention to dealing with your families’ reactions to your polygynous marriage, and the affect their reactions have on the respective marriages. There will always be challenges, but many sisters report that they are worth it. Sister Zainab now says, “Polygyny is difficult, but I like the independence it has given me now. If something happened and I had to go back to monogamy, I wouldn’t want to.”

April 17, 2007 Posted by | Coping with polygyny, faith, Islam, marriage, Muslim women, polygamy, polygyny, religion | 10 Comments

First wife betrayed

betrayal.jpgPainting (“Betrayal”) by

Colleen D. Gjefle

So what if you are a Muslimah and your husband has already done the deed? Already married another woman behind your back? How do you deal with THAT kettle of fish?

You remember how people in the jahiliya Arab culture used to rent their clothing and tear their hair and wail and even engage in self-flagellation when someone died? I never understood how they could do that until something happened once during my husband’s “courtship” with my co-wife. Mind you, I knew all about their planned marriage and I was completely OK with it (which does not mean it was easy), but this one issue caused me a kind of pain that I didn’t even know existed. Deep, searing pain that I had no way awful enough to express. I literally wanted to tear my clothes just to express the weight – the intensity – of the pain I felt. It was unbelievable.

So I cannot imagine the pain of finding out that your husband has married on you after the fact. I just want to put out there that although no one can truly understand that kind of pain, I did have a small taste of it that one time, and other sisters have survived it. When I give my suggestions for dealing with such a situation, I do not mean to belittle your pain. So please don’t close your heart and mind to them, even if some of them seem simplistic.

Suggestion #1: Proclaim (and believe), “Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajaun” – To God we belong and to Him we return. This is reaffirming to yourself that you are not a creature of this dunya – your goal is to be in this dunya as a wayfarer, remembering that your real home and your real dedication is to Allah. Remember the hadith where the woman was wailing at her son’s graveside and the Prophet (salAllahu alaihi wa sallem) advised her to be patient? She (not recognizing him as the Prophet) responded that he had no idea what she was going through. Later, when she was told it was the Prophet who gave her that advice, she came to him and begged forgiveness. He reminded her that patience is at the first stage of a disaster. This has been interpreted to mean that of course you can adjust to calamity later, time can help you reign in your emotions and reason with them and come to terms with your new reality. But those who remember Allah at ALL stages of grief, from denial to acceptance, are those who have truly understood the reality that this life is not where our hearts or our home really is.

Suggestion #2: Don’t do anything rash. Don’t make any decisions while you are in the initial state of turmoil and agony. Emotions are strong, often stronger than our intellect, but a wise woman recognizes them for what they are and does not allow herself to be motivated by them to take action until she has allowed her iman and her intellect to kick in, and has considered things from every angle, not just the emotional angle.

Suggestion #3: Separate the betrayal from the concept of polygyny itself in your mind. While the betrayal is traumatic, polygyny itself can be a wonderful style of marriage. So don’t lump the betrayal and the polygyny all together in the same painful category. The same goes for your co-wife. Don’t pre-judge her as a shameless, homewrecking hussy because your husband went about marrying her in a deceitful way. He may have lied to her as well, telling her you knew or even presenting himself as single. And even if she knew about you, there might be extenuating circumstances that made her agree to the marriage. If there were none, she may have made a mistake, just like your husband. So hold a corner of your heart open for a possible relationship with her and look upon her as family as early as you possibly can. A great deal of whether a polygynous family works or not is in your hands. If you can’t stand the idea of ever seeing your co-wife, that is not a sin. But if, after taking some time to adjust, you open your heart to her, you will receive blessings you can’t foresee, insha’Allah.

Suggestion #4: Take a time-out from your husband if you need to. Maybe you can go visit your parents or your sister or a friend, or maybe you just need to ask your husband to sleep on the couch for awhile. Many women feel a need to withdraw into themselves somewhat and shore up their broken hearts after a second marriage is revealed. Betrayal is one of the most difficult tests any marriage can suffer. The feeling of being betrayed is intense agony and anguish. It is difficult to get past and difficult for the couple to rebuild trust and get back to a normal footing with each other again. But it can be done. Lots of couples have gotten through it: Muslim couples when a husband marries on his wife and all kinds of couples when one partner has had an illicit affair. What the offending partner has to do is realize that he (in this case) has made the mistake and he will just have to be patient while the offended partner comes to grips with the situation.

Now: to “men” who say that they have done nothing wrong because polygyny is allowed, I reply that betrayal is most certainly NOT allowed in Islam, nor is secret marriage. So while it is permitted for you to marry more than one wife, it is not permitted for you to live a lie and keep your wives’ true status a secret from any of them. (Here is a link to a great article on this subject: ) And even if you can somehow justify your actions to yourself or find some sheikh somewhere who gives you a fatwa that you are in the clear, that does not make the betrayal any less hurtful to your wife. It probably even increases it. So you need to be prapared to give her time to adjust. If she needs that time and you don’t allow it, or if you refuse to acknolwdge that you caused her pain, you will probably find yourself right back in monogamy in short order – this time with your second wife.

Suggestion #5: Remember that life is cyclic and time stands still for no one. Your husband and his new wife, even if she is younger or skinnier or a better cook or whatever, will get past their infatuation with each other and will arrive at a time when their marriage is tested. When their marriage becomes mundane. They will get bored and frustrated and angry and impatient with each other, just like all couples. There is no such thing as a fairy-tale marriage. No matter what your co-wife brings to her marriage that you see as “better” than what you brought to yours, it does not mean she is perfect. It only means that different women have different talents and attributes, and that’s all. Remember, even Aisha was bedazzled when she looked at Juwayriah, alaihom asSalaam. So don’t be overly concerned with what you see as your new co-wife’s “better” qualities.

Suggestion #6: Draw close to Allah. Polygyny is a trial with which Allah only tests selected people. It is also the perfect battle ground on which to fight Jjihad un Nafs (the battle against the baser self). You will fight battles that many people never even get to in their lifetimes. This is a good thing, because you have the opportunity for much spiritual progress. Whereas many people live life in a state of spiritual delusion, thinking they have control over at least some things in this life, you have been shaken to your very core with the realization that things are not in your hands. This is not a unique situation – it is in fact the situation for everyone – but you have had the veil of delusion lifted and have seen reality for what it really is. That is a grand first step on your journey to become ever closer to Allah.

Co-wives also confront other issues that are wonderful opportunities for spiritual growth. Ghira (protectiveness over your husband or children or other parts of your life) is a powerful emotion, and co-wives must always be vigilant that their ghira does not turn to hassad (outright envy or jealousy, where you would take the blessing from the other person if you were able). Hassad is extremely destructive to both the person experiencing it and the person toward whom it is directed, and there are people who feel it regularly without even being cognisant of that fact. As a co-wife, however, you will constantly feel the need to seek refuge with Allah from shaitan, while you fight hassad. This is a blessing because at least you will recognize it and seek refuge from it. Some people are never tested in a way that makes them feel the need to address this issue, and thus they may never grow spiritually in this area. (Note: the EMOTION of hassad, simply feeling jealousy, is worthy of seeking refuge with Allah, but it is not the same as the sickness of real hassad, which goes deeper than that. True hassad is when you seethe with it and give in to it and don’t seek refuge with Allah and would gladly take an opportunity to steal the blessing away from the other person.)

Ghiba (gossip) is another area where co-wives have a chance to improve their spiritual state. By consciously trying to avoid speaking badly about your co-wife or your husband to others (including people on annonymous email forums or chat rooms), you discipline your soul. Ghiba is a great playground of shaitan, because when you engage in it you actually feel superior to the person you’re speaking about. You get that twinge of haughtiness that whispers to you, “It’s OK, it’s TRUE. She IS evil or she DID do this or that”. But what’s really happening is that you are demoting yourself a step and elevating whoever is the object of your gossip. See how deceit is what shaitan is all about? Suphan Allah.

Suggestion #7: Qiyam ul Lail. Pray it! Did you know that Qiyam ul Lail is considered a blessing bestowed on only a few? There was even a sheikh once who was prevented from rising for Qiyam for 40 days, and he said he thought it was punishment for him having made a demeaning comment about how a man looked. So to those who pray Qiyam regularly it is such a blessing that to miss it is considered a punishment! Take advantage of this time when your heart and mind are spinning and you may even have trouble sleeping to rise at night and seek salve for your heart with Allah. He is waiting, especially at the blessed last third of the night, to answer your du’as and ease your soul. Just remember to keep up the habit after you have adjusted to your new marital situation! You may be blessed with adjustment so complete that you no longer have trouble sleeping and find it hard to rise at night. Many sisters report this phenomenon.

Suggestion #8: As soon as you can, try to think in a forgiving way about your husband. Even though what he did was horrendous, it is now something that is in the past – something he cannot change. So after your fury and agony and humiliation have ebbed somewhat, remember that your husband is no less human than anyone else, and that mistakes are part of being human. (I’m NOT going to tell you to consider how scared he might have been to tell you, or to consider that he probably just didn’t want to hurt you, because frankly I don’t buy those excuses. If a man thinks he is man enough to be a polygynous husband he needs to stand up and be one. If a man honestly doesn’t want to hurt his wife, he will tell her up front, because no one is stupid enough to believe that a secret like that can be kept forever, and no one is stupid enough to think that finding out later will hurt a woman less.) But put yourself in the frame of mind that any tresspass, no matter how huge, can be forgiven.

Give your husband a chance to rebuild his trustworthiness again. Don’t hold on to the indignation and fury forever, for eventually it will begin to fester away in your own soul, and wind up hurting you. In order to have a healthy relationship again you need to take small steps toward forgiveness each day (after the initial shock period ends, of course).

Suggestion #9: DO NOT dwell in the state of Self-Pity. It may be a place you visit after you’ve been married on, but do not set up a residence. Get the heck out of there as fast as you possibly can. That place is full of spiritual stagnation, bitterness, and depression. You’ve been wronged. Try to move from that idea to the idea that you have a special opportunity to get close to Allah, and get on about the business of growing. Live life as it comes to you – it’s an adventure! So you have a co-wife now. OK. Get on with your life.  Rededicate yourself to being the best wife and the best Muslimah you can be!

Suggestion #10: Remember that when you are in the grave and when you are brought back on the Day of Judgement, you will be alone. All alone. Your husband will not be a part of your experience of it at all. This reminds us that our primary relationship should be our relationship with Allah. I know many of us sisters build our lives around our husbands. This is not a bad thing, unless we put our husband above Allah in our thinking. And here’s a secret: without knowing it, a lot of us do. Polygyny can help remind you where your primary focus should be and it can also help you develop interests and involvements that are yours alone, which makes you well-rounded. You’ll find that after awhile you value those interests a lot and they have become part of who you are. You still love your husband just as much but you’re not as dependent on his presence to be fulfilled as a Muslimah or as a person.

Suggestion #11: Remember that we don’t know what may happen in the future. Allah has reasons for things, even painful things, that we cannot fathom. Remember the story of Prophet Musa and the wise man. Perhaps your relationship with your husband will ultimately be improved by his marrying another wife (I promise, this has happened!). Perhaps your co-wife or you will come down with a condition like cancer, authu billahi, and need intense care. Perhaps your situation will strengthen your faith and raise your rank. Life brings us things we could never expect, and we adjust and adapt to new situations differently than we THINK we will ahead of time. So give things some time, express your feelings but don’t wallow in them, open your eyes and heart to the reality that we are not in control of what happens to us, and put your relationship with Allah first in your life.

Well, it’s probably taken you twenty years to read this, so I’ll sign off for now! More later. Oh – and welcome to the club!

April 5, 2007 Posted by | Coping with polygyny, faith, Islam, marriage, muslim men, Muslim women, polygamy, polygyny, religion | 6 Comments